One of my biggest fears is getting older. I’m not sure why…perhaps it’s the uncertainty of it all. But nevertheless…it happened today. I crossed over the twenty-something threshold.
I think for the first time in three decades, I actually felt older. Every year for the past 29 years, everyone has always asked, “So, do you feel older?” and I could always answer negatively. But today was not the case. I did feel older. I walked a little taller. It was strange.
I’m also continuously reminded how blessed I am. For one, I’m still alive. :) But I really have some wonderful friends. For instance, my best friend, Brian…who treated me to a weekend of debauchery in Sin City last weekend. ;) Or Ennis and Crystal, who took me out to dinner tonight with our young friend, Zack…who also shares my birthday with me. Well, a decade later, anyway. Then there was Heather…my beautiful, long-lost friend who shared some hot wings and beer with me this afternoon. And who could forget my grandma and dad…my rocks, if you will. Grandma made me her famous enchiladas (with help from my dad…) and both of them surprised me with wedding cake, which is my favorite kind of cake. Well, it wasn’t REALLY wedding cake…but it was close enough.
And then there were the countless others who dropped me notes, Myspace comments, emails, text messages, phone calls…
I am truly blessed.
There are some disadvantages to getting older…but I’m told the advantages totally outweigh them. My female friends assure me that this is only the beginning…that as a guy, I only get better with age. I’m not sure about that…but I do like wine and cheese…and being compared to them makes me feel pretty good about myself. But I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel some sort of disappointment for where I am. I mean, I feel great about my accomplishments…but I’m such a different place than where I would have pictured myself. But I guess that’s not necessarily a bad thing. And the fact that I don’t act my age? I guess that’s not a bad thing either…and I strutted around in my Chuck Taylor’s today to prove it.
I wish I could say something wise and profound about turning 30 today. But I think that whole wisdom thing doesn’t kick in for a few days or so. But what I can say about it is that despite my fears of getting older, my 30th birthday has come and gone and it was a pretty good day. And I guess turning 30 isn’t all that bad after all.
Let’s bring on another three decades and then I’ll let you know how I feel. :)
didn’t I just see Jessi on an episode of Wipeout! The second time she’d been on the show, but this time she did it in a tiny bikini.