so this is the new year. and i don’t feel any different. the clanking of crystal explosions off in the distance (in the distance). so this is the new year and I have no resolutions for self assigned penance for problems with easy solutions so everybody put your best suit or dress on let’s make [...]
so this is the new year.
and i don’t feel any different.
the clanking of crystal
explosions off in the distance (in the distance).so this is the new year
and I have no resolutions
for self assigned penance
for problems with easy solutionsso everybody put your best suit or dress on
let’s make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
as thirty dialogues bleed into onei wish the world was flat like the old days
then i could travel just by folding a map
no more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
there’d be no distance that can hold us back.
-the new year, death cab for cutie
Welcome to 2006, people. It’s definitely been an interesting ride…but we are finally here. :) The ball has dropped, the cork has popped, Auld Lang Syne has been sung, and now I look forward to several excruciating weeks of getting used to writing “2006″ instead of “2005″ on everything.
Looking back, 2005 had a lot of interesting stuff. This is what I could remember…
Changes
There were lots of these. People. People in my life changed. Although that’s what happens when you grow up. People change. Sometimes it’s for the better…and sometimes it’s for the worst. I’ve seen it go both ways these last 365 days, some more recent than others.
The place where my paycheck comes from also changed. That was hard, since I left a bunch of people I cared about for a strange, different place. But it’s worked out for the best and there are several great people at the “W” that have become good friends.
Changes are always hard; but they are part of growing up. They make us better people, and that is something I’m learning every single day. It actually is one of the mottos over at the “W,‿ since things are ever-changing around there.
I’ve also changed the roof over my head. A year ago, I moved out from my Point Loma paradise to live in La Mesa. I left the convenience of being so close to the beach to being so close to…well…nothing. I gave up sharing a room to having a room of my own, which actually ended up being as small as an Altoid tin. And now, officially as of last night, I am out of that house and into my brand new apartment. I’m loving the situation, the roommates, the location. I, of course, didn’t like the circumstances surrounding the move, but you get over things. Maybe. We all know how I deal with that. Do I feel a resolution coming on?
New Friends, Old Friends
How ironic, two years before the big 10-year reunion, that I would reconnect with people I haven’t seen or talked to in the last seven years? With the MySpace explosion, I found people that I never would have even thought would be on MySpace. And of course, leave it to those Ramona grads to find success…a high-paying government job, grad school in France, love in Italy…the list goes on. Who ever said nothing good comes from Ramona? Cow-Pie High my butt! Can I get a yee-haw?
And along with old friends, I also have met some new special people…a cute California girl from Kansas, a really cool model from Alpine, three really cute girls and a Chihuahua from Sacramento just to name a few. Who knows who I will meet next?
Relationships
2005 was a lonely year. It was a year where I realized I could feel absolutely and totally alone and at the same time be totally surrounded by people, if that makes any sense. It was a year in which I realized that more times than not I had nothing to say. It was a year I saw true colors. It was a year I realized the things that I want may not be the things that I need. It was a year of making a fool of myself at times and learning from those mistakes.
There’s a lot more I could reflect on and a lot more details I could fill in, but then they wouldn’t be the mysteries of life that we know and love. Besides, most of you reading were here for the journey anyway; the ups and downs, the good and the bad. I appreciate the comments and the emails from people who actually read what I ramble about. I’d probably still write anyway even if no one read…but it’s nice to know you people actually care about me.
2006 is going to bring some good things…I can just feel it. It’s another 365 days to meet challenges head on and to fall flat on my face. And as long as I keep getting up, I know I’ll be okay.
Happy New Year!
Here’s to 2006 dude.
We missed you on Saturday night!
Missed you guys too. But you gotta know the disarray at Casa Nice Guy is driving me up the wall. Next shindig, I’m there. I promise. I’ve flaked way more than I should be allowed. :)
Dude, I totally know what you mean about feeling lonely, while at the same time being surrounded by people. I think that I’m actually more likely to get lonely in a crowd than when I’m totally alone.